first of all: happy new year, kiddos. hopefully, this year will be a great one.

second of all: i don’t really know what’s happening with my tech career.

when i got the job offer to work as an infrastructure engineer in my current company, i thought to myself: “finally i can do something i like!”, because i was really digging into cloud and observability, but i didn’t know that i would be working with AI.

you see, i joined the company thinking to myself i’d be building crazy ass infra for big companies, turns out, i’m actually molding the aiops section in my company. wild, right?

i got pretty excited about AI and ML recently. it’s such an interesting field, but i kept my distance because there’s a lot of math involved. i don’t really like math, and hey, i thought i’d NEVER be a developer. i didn’t want to write code.

ironically, that’s pretty much what i’ve been doing for a year. and i’m loving it. python is pretty cool. building something is pretty cool.

in the same year, i get obsessed with robots. i’ve been thinking about doing something with robotics and eletronic, but i don’t know how to start. is just a thought that came to my head since i’ve been deep into ml. i’m not here to rant about the fact that i got a cool job with AI. actually, something that’s been in my mind recently is: am i in the wrong side of history?

the recent tech industry is horrifying. i don’t have any other words to describe it. as much as i love the innovations that comes with technology, i can’t put behind me the fact that grok generated thousands of porn images of children and women without consent. i can’t put behind me that data centers are destroying our world. i can’t put behind me that chatgpt is horrible and it’s the most popular LLM out there. people, deepseek and claude are WAY better.

that’s not the point, the point is: i feel like i’m in the wrong side of history. the tech industry has so many downsides these days that makes me question what the fuck am i doing studying to become a ML engineer because let’s be honest, algorithms have destroyed internet fun in so many ways. but i can’t deny how freaking awesome these algorithms are under the hood.

i feel bad every time i’m using LLMs, but I can’t deny how freaking awesome it is to build a chatbot from scratch. i try to pet myself by using ollama, but let’s face it, claude code it’s an absolute beast I can’t ignore it, is the best pair-programming pal i’ll ever have.

it’s horrible to be working in the center of the chaos, everything seems to be going downhill from here because of these AI companies that are so fucking greedy with everything. i mean, how many earth resources do you need to generate a picture of a monkey playing the piano? don’t even get me started on these ai-generated videos that are just terrible.

i don’t know, i don’t have much to elaborate on this thought that i had. the only thing i’m left with is the questioning if i’m the bad guy contributing to a bad future.